How I begun my sculpting journey.

Hi all beautiful souls,

I am not sure if this will resonate with you or help in any way, but I would like to share with you a little of how I started my journey with sculpting.

On my Instagram feed you can see the full collection of little sculpture creatures that I created when I was going through a deep healing process. In 2020, I suddenly lost my dad. His death and the events that accompanied it activated what you may call my awakening. I suppose sometimes events like this first seem like challenges, but they help us move forward, alchemise stuck energies, and shift us to a different timeline.

When I was going through grief, I felt an enormous urge to create. I was never great at sharing my feelings with others, and I needed to cocoon myself. I needed a safe space where I could hide and go deep inside to understand underlying patterns and cycles that were no longer good for me. I am still on this journey of self-discovery and surrendering to the divine.

I found a safe space in my spare bedroom, which I transformed into my art studio. I didn’t fully understand what was happening with me at that time, but I felt a strong push to sculpt. I don’t have professional art training, and I had never sculpted in this lifetime. I once did a one-day clay workshop for beginners in the town where I live, where I learned basic techniques and a little about glazing. So, I didn’t have a clue what I was doing — I just knew I had to do it and that it would help me transform my sadness.

I created 11 creatures that represented my emotions and the healing that took place. Each sculpture helped me transform sadness, anger, anxiety, rage, despair — all the emotions that come with a traumatic experience. I used clay as my tool to transform these feelings and create something — maybe not beautiful, because I must say they don’t look beautiful — but there was no intention or expectation of how they were going to look. I just let go and surrendered to the process.

What I am trying to say here is that we can all find our own way to transform the feelings inside us that hold us back and make us feel stuck. We can find a way to express our feelings by creating something, and by doing that, we alchemise and transform pain into something meaningful. It could be drawing, taking photographs, any kind of sport — anything that gets us out of the head and its vicious cycles, and into the heart and creative mode. I know it is hard to stay in your heart when you are in pain and want to close it so you don’t get hurt anymore, but if you let go of a little control and start to just play with clay or any other tool, you might be surprised by what comes out of it.

So I took a lump of clay and started to play with it. Suddenly, the creature inside was ready to unravel. The formless shape became a form. They started to emerge from nothingness, from the void — the empty space inside me. Sometimes I felt so numb there was nothing I wanted to say or express. I get those phases of emptiness now, and I feel it is normal. As I go through deep healing, I wait for my sacral chakra to be ready to fully express the new beings that want to be birthed. Each of these pieces is full of magic and healing energy, as I have transformed what no longer serves me into magical codes and frequencies that are here to uplift and activate.

My loves, it doesn’t matter if you call yourself an artist or not — creating something helps to transmute the stuck energies inside you. So if you feel you need to express yourself in any way, just do it. Don’t overthink the outcome or whether anyone is going to like it or not. It is for you — for your own good.

What is also very important for me, and has helped enormously, is nature. Spending time in nature, having my bare feet on Mother Earth, is the most important thing for me.

My art has helped me grow and expand. I have stopped judging myself and comparing myself to others. We are all so unique and different in how we express ourselves, and everybody’s journey is different, so there is no point in comparing. What is most important is that you love what you are doing and that it brings you joy.

So keep going, my beautiful souls, and create — no matter what others think. Just do it for yourself!